"When i look at the

galaxies on a clear night-

when i look at the

incredible brilliance of

creation, and think that

this is what God is like,

then insteaed of feeling

intimidated and diminished

by, i am enlarged- I

rejoice that i am a a part of it."

          -Madeleine L'Engle

mmm i love it.

Thursday afternoon at about, oh, 2:00 p.m. i will be embarking on a sounthernward journey to this fantastic place known as Florida. it will be fantastic, i'm sure of it. warm sunshine has never sounded so great before. The long awaited trip is finally here, i'm super excided.

i have a spanish test tomorrow, BOOO, who does that? honestly? i havn't had any good brain power going since last week Wednesday for sure. Which is probably not a good thing since we had meaps today...hm...

I wonder if anyone goes to michigan for spring break. i bet not, unless they are visiting family. I bet Florida is so proud that everyone goes to their state, i bet that it thinks it has superiority ovef all the other states b/c during spring break time its population like doubles. Pfff, cocky florida. o well, it has sunshine!

                                    "Embrace this God-life. Really embrace it, and                         nothing will be too much for you....That's why i urge you to pray for absoluletly everything, ranging from small to large. Include everything as you embrace this God-life, and you'll get God's everything."

                                                                           Mark 11:22-24

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i appologize...

i have not been a faithful xanga member. its been too long.

my most recent focus is spring break....in about 27 days i will be traveling down to my warm destination. FLORIDA. i cannot wait.  i dont understand how so many people i know can be, or have come back from tropical places. its completly unfair and redeculous. my mom is in florida right now. it makes me sick. cuz when she comes home shes just gonna rub it in my face.

BUT i hear its supposed to be 60 degrees this week. so thats pretty exciding.

Me and my friends teach sunday school some sundays and today we talked about the first day of lent, which means that there are 6 more sundays till easter! i love easter! For lent you are supposed to snuff out a candle each sunday that you are closer to easter...and for advent you light one. I wonder who made up that tradition and why we do things like that? weird. Big church had communion today so we had blueberry muffins for the little kids. cracks me up. i like them alot. we got to play duck duck goose too, and i really like that game. I honestly think that me and my friends could have alot of fun playing it.

i'm sick of my cold. i feel like i've had it for a year and a half. sickest i've been in a long time.

"this bright, new day, complete with 24 hours of opportunities, choices, and attitudes come with a perfectly matched set of 1440 minutes. This unique gift, this one day, cannont be exchanged, replaced or refunded. handle with care. make the most of it.There is only one to a cunstomer."

i feel like everythings coming together. things are good. :)

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- wedding day

well.

last night was homecoming. it was really fun. i enjoyed myself. quite stressful, and hurried. but it was really good overall. i really liked my date.

i'm looking forward to this upcoming winter break more than ever before. i'm definately in blah mode. which isn't my favorite mode to be in.

i really dislike mean people. the women from ottowa were very mean. last night i had a dream about more mean people. my choir directer is mean. i hope i never become like that without knowing it.

i hate change. people change. and relationships change. and i wish everything could stay like i'm used to. i decided that i want a highlights vidio of my life. i want to go back and experience like the top ten best moments/times of my life. Like after a basketball basketball season is over you always have highlights vidio of the best shots, plays, and games. Well i want one of my life. Just an over veiw. i just want to be able to push play and go through them and experience them again. I know that i'm supposed to be created all these new great times, which i am. i just never want to forget the old ones.

i really like driving in my car during thunderstorms and playing my chill music really loud. it may be one of my new favorite things. Its like i'm living in my own little bubble. Which is a pretty great place if your me.

i only got five hours of sleep last night, and played two games of basketball this morning and i'm not tired. i dont know why. its the weirdest thing.  i can't remember the last time i didn't want the usual sunday nap.

"its not how many breaths you take, but how many moments take your breath away."

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received some good news today.

                                   the weekend is off to a beautiful start.

This week was a rough one in the Kraay household. i usually get along with my parents    relitivly well but this week that was not the case... we fought every single day and i went upstairs in my room at about 7:00 and stayed there till bed b/c i was so angry with them. And i realized that i was way out of line...that even though i'm not getting what i wanted, and that sometimes i think what they say is alittle unfair and rediculous...they have a point. (even if i will never admit it to them.) But during that time i was spent being fuming angry in my room thinking how mean they were, i found this in my desk drawer. i know its long, but read it....its amazingly true.

"These things i wish for each of you...We tried so hard to make things better for our kids that we made them worse. For my grandchildren. I'd like better. I'd really like for them to know about hand-me down cloths and home made ice cream and leftover meat loaf sandwiches. I really would. I hope you learn humility by being humiliated, and that you learn honesty by being cheated. I hope you learn to make your bed and mow the lawn and wash the car. And i really hope nobody gives you a brand new car when your sixteen. It will be good if at least one time you can see puppies born and your old dog put to sleep. I hope you get a black eye fighting for something you beleive in. I hope you have to share a bedroom with your younger brother. And its all right if you have to draw a line down the middle of the room, but when he wants to crawl under the covers with you b/c hes scared, I hope you let him. When you want to see a movie and your little sister wants to tag along, I hope you'll let her. I hope you have to walk uphill to school with your friends and that you live in a town where you can do it safely. On rainy days when you have to catch a ride, I hope you dont ask your 'driver' to drop you off two bolcks away so you won't be seen riding with someone as uncool as your mom. If you want a slingshot, i hope your dad teaches you how to make one instead of buying one. I hope you learn to dig in the dirt and read books. When you learn to use computers, i hope you also learn to add and subtract in your head. I hope you get teased by your firends when you have your first crush on a girl, and when you talk back to your mother that you learn what Ivory soap tasts like. May you skin your knee climbing a mountain, burn your hand on a stove and stick your tongue on a froozen flagpole. I dont care if you try a beer once, but i hope you dont like it. And if a friends offers you dope or a joint, i hope you realize he is not your friend. I sure hope you make time to sit on a porch with your grandma and go fishing with your uncle. May you feel sorrow at a funeral and joy during the holidays. i hope your mother punished you when you throw a baseball through a neighbor's window and that she hugs you and kisses you at Christmas time when you give her a mold of your hand. These things I wish for you: tough times and disapointment, hard work and happiness. To me, its the only way to appriciate life. " 

Even though i'm not getting what i want, and i hate that i can't have it, and all my friends can....its going to be better for me in the long run. And even though i dont have any money and have have to savor every penny right now...i know that i appriciate the value of money and wise spending. And when the summer comes and i'm working all the time, how to appriciate hard work. My dad always tells me that i need to count my blessings.

so thats what i'm going to try and do.

not look at what i dont have...but what i do.

and hopefully that way.....i'll realize how i'm blessed beyond belief.

thats the goal.